Awkward...

Watching the show Awkward on MTV made me realise that a blog is not supposed to be something that I do so that people would notice me. It should just be an outlet. It's like I'm sharing my thoughts with the world without the world really know about it. Because no one really want to read about me. Who am I? Nobody that's for sure. I have no income of my own, I don't know what I'll be when I graduate and frankly, I don't know whether I will graduate on time. My practicum was hell. I even fail one observation and the rest was not so good. I know I can be a good teacher. But my lecturer sure don't think so. But that is the story of the past, I moved on. Now, it's time to focus on the future. AE...huh, It's almost 2014, and still I haven't e-mail my supervisor my questionnaire. I want to, but every time I try to do it, nothing. blank. Honestly, I'm easily distracted, I tend to watch TV or browse the internet, watch movies, singing, dancing,  reading and the next thing I know, it's time to start another day. I'm insomniatic. I don't sleep at night anymore. I just sleep during the day, I haven't seen daylight for almost a month now. It's worrying. I'm scared. I'm crazy. I didn't pray, for like two months now, and that is sin. shit crazy. what the hell is wrong with me?! i don't know. i can differentiate what's right anymore. no body push me any more. it's all up to me. and super scary. now i'm sleepy, like what the f?