Noreen Is Back and Laughing!!

Good morning!!

If you've read my previous emotional breakdown post, than you probably feel worried. Well, just wanna say that apparently, all I need is to pray five times a day, an awesome day with the whole family and my loving brother! seriously! I feel awesome now! NOREEN IS BACK! hahaha! where did she go anywhere before right? hahahahaha! Now I wake up early in the morning and is able to sleep at night.

Today I plan to finish my AE questionnaire and anticipate 2014 that is coming soon. I can just tell that 2014 will be amazing! It's my year. Oh yeah.. uuu! n one more thing, Runningman totally made my day too. In fact, I'm going to kick this day with some Runningman! So, here is a pic of my fav show! That's it for now ! XOXO..

Kwang Soo my fav character!

Monday couple!

Monday couple is the best..really hope they get married..hohoho..love them!

Facebooking myself to self discovery..

Facebook is so stalker friendly, it's scary. Social network used to be just for us young people, but now, your mom, dad, sister, brother the whole clan is on it! Thank God for twitter! If my family start having Twitter, than my life is ruined. In today's society, being yourself often have something to do with how you portray yourself online. People get to know you by what you post and your status update. Most of it just bullshit i tell you, like everyone pretends their life is so fucking amazing but really it isn't. There a stats that i read somewhere about how Facebook update really just putting a simple day into an awesome day! like a LIE! Update never really tells you the truth of that person, sometimes it does, other time, it's just a lie to show that they have a life. kind of what i'm doing. so, i stop posting update on fb or twitter..at least until i hv a life again. for now, i just want to focus on rehabilitating my life.

just like how demi hv her low moment in life, i believe this is my low, i hv neglect my religion, my academic, my family, my friend n my responsibility. when mdm roslind said that i've changed..n it's not a good thing, she was right. i did change. i was secretly depressed. so secret that even i didn't realise it until now.

i decided that no one can get me out of this funk besides me. i am the master of my own emotion n life. yes, Allah is there to help me, but only if i change first. remember, "Sesungguhnya Allah takkan mengubah nasib sesuatu kaum kecuali kaum itu sendii mengubah nasib mereka". Basically meaning that even God can't help you unless you're willing to help yourself.

SO, NOREEN AMIRA HELP YOURSELF! BE A BETTER YOU..TODAY!

to atie........

woah!! umm..hai atie..didn't know you actually read my blog..my heart was pounding as i read what you wrote on my fb msg..i just had like a momentarily mental breakdown. it's nice to know that someone actually care but it is also scary to know that someone actually reading my thoughts, then again it's me who want to share it with the world. i feel like deleting my previous post, but i shouldn't. i always do that. write something then delete.huh..it's funny, the person who you think care about you don't, but the person who really care about you..respond. so , i don't know what i'm actually writing here..i just want to say..thank you atie and i love you..and i feel loved..

Awkward...

Watching the show Awkward on MTV made me realise that a blog is not supposed to be something that I do so that people would notice me. It should just be an outlet. It's like I'm sharing my thoughts with the world without the world really know about it. Because no one really want to read about me. Who am I? Nobody that's for sure. I have no income of my own, I don't know what I'll be when I graduate and frankly, I don't know whether I will graduate on time. My practicum was hell. I even fail one observation and the rest was not so good. I know I can be a good teacher. But my lecturer sure don't think so. But that is the story of the past, I moved on. Now, it's time to focus on the future. AE...huh, It's almost 2014, and still I haven't e-mail my supervisor my questionnaire. I want to, but every time I try to do it, nothing. blank. Honestly, I'm easily distracted, I tend to watch TV or browse the internet, watch movies, singing, dancing,  reading and the next thing I know, it's time to start another day. I'm insomniatic. I don't sleep at night anymore. I just sleep during the day, I haven't seen daylight for almost a month now. It's worrying. I'm scared. I'm crazy. I didn't pray, for like two months now, and that is sin. shit crazy. what the hell is wrong with me?! i don't know. i can differentiate what's right anymore. no body push me any more. it's all up to me. and super scary. now i'm sleepy, like what the f?

Check Out The New Blog..

Dear Minions!

Well, it's not much of a post really..just wanted to show you my new and improved blog! please comment and tell me what do you think..good or bad..

I WILL TELL THE TRUTH AND NOTHING BUT THE TRUTH..

Dear Minions!

I have a lot of friends. They're great! And I love them. They know me the best, sometimes even better than my own family because friends are family that we chose not born with. Now, don't get me wrong, I love my family, more than anything. I wouldn't trade them for anything. Compare to other unfortunate people I have it good..now wait, I'm straying from the topic of today's post. THE TRUTH!

I have come to a conclusion this evening while I was in the shower that I am not being honest with myself. To simply put sometimes I'm delusional. I'm a very optimistic person..well..most of the time, and the thing with optimistic people is that they tend to see their own problem differently, imagining themselves as someone who is AWESOME! But the thing is, it's not the reality..it is very hard for me to write this..to tell the absolute truth about me, but I need to do this..I need to change and better myself.
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I am a very LAZY person! Honestly, all I do every day is sleep, eat and watch TV.

I am OBESE! No, this is not emotional talking, I am truly BMI approved and doctor approved..OBESE!  I have more testosterone than estrogen in my body, which explain my lack of emotions sometimes..

I am a 'Professional Procrastinator'. That's what my friends call me, cuz I always do my assignments the day before..or on the day itself, LITERALLY! But still manage to get a decent grade..the truth is..I started procrastinating when I was in standard 4 which is when I was ten..n am that way ever since..

I don't have a boyfriend! bummer! never hv one ever. well there is this one time, but it was with my best friend n thing start to get really weird really fast the moment we declare ourselves a couple! It was even weirder cuz we were just experimenting..like i don't think either of us want one another, it's just that no one wants us..so..yup..anyway, he's a different guy now, he lost a lot of weight and hair n totally don't care anymore..so whatever!

I have a lot of potential but never hv the gut to do anything about it. Like I can be a designer, but I'm to lazy to take a sewing class or do anything. The same goes with singing, writing, dancing, travelling, cooking, baking, and so much more that I don't even want to name any more cuz it's just making me depressed..

So, to sum it up, I'm a lazy, fat, apparently smart, goofy girl..there's so much more about me that I haven't told you, but I'm too embarrassed..n can't deal any more..so..goodbye for now..