Remember when you were little, and you look at your parents and think "wow! It's so awesome being an adult! Nobody tells you what to do..you have your own money..and basically you get to do whatever the hell that you want!"
well..hello there..it's 15 years later and guess what? I'M A FREAKING ADULT!
and let me tell you something kids, adulthood is not sunshine and rainbows..don't ever wish you were an adult unless you're an heir to a fortune then mayyybee your life is a bit cool and awesome. But for the rest of us muggles here, adulthood is rough. You have to think about boring stuff like bills, and insurances and rents and work and ugh! I don't know..lots of boring craps.. and honestly..you are tired almost all the time. like seriously! why am I so tired?! I don't get it!
Of course there are super human that are able to do it all and get their shits together and still look perfect and flawless with a smile on their face. My mum is one of that super human. But I honestly can't do it. I am behind in almost all of my work. And maybe because I'm so tired all the time, I stop putting effort to my works? Like I do it, but just to get by. Honestly, if I were to give it my all, my work can win a Nobel prize. (exaggeration really..but you get what I mean)
Oh! and did I tell you I am a walking ball of fat now? Not that I was any slimmer before..I mean really I am always a fat and hairy girl.(thanks bullies for putting that in my head..it's a scar that's never going to heal) but before this at least.. I can still fit into a size L or XL..but now, even an XL is a danger zone. I look like a Michelin tyre in an XL...AN XL! huh! really noreen..but it's my own fault..I keep eating junk food and fast food so of course I'm fat.
It's a vicious cycle really. I'm an emotional eater. (I should probably see someone about that) So, I feel fat and like a loser. (there are those days) So I eat. but it's because I eat..I am fat. But I'm stressed..so I eat. But that's why you're fat..oh what the hell! I'm already fat so just eat.
This kids, is only the tip of the iceberg into the world of adulthood. There are so much more stressful, annoying and boring crap that I have to deal with, but let's save that bit for the next post. I really feel overwhelmed just writing this down, but hey at least I've let it out.
So, until the next post kids. (God knows when)
-still learning to be an adult-
